I have mixed feelings as I close-out the 2010 tax year. Don't get me wrong, I am very excited about where we are going, but it is also sad to see something end. In case you haven't heard, our company (Heber Valley Welding & Repair) has merged with RJ Masonry to create a new entity (Legacy Machinery). My husband has been working towards this goal for a very long time and I am so happy to see his dream become a realization.
We started our corporation in January of 2000 while I was pregnant with my son, Tristen. I have to admit that at first, I was not very happy. Losing the security of a steady paycheck was a terrifying prospect. I didn't like the long hours and constant phone calls that always seemed to take Travis away at the most importuned moments. It was like the company was his illegitimate child--a twin to my son in every way but one. I didn't feel the love for my husband's second son the way that he did and it only became worse as it grew even more demanding--monopolizing my time as well. For the first few years, I resented the strain, but I eventually did learn to love my ugly step-child, and now he is all growed up.
I imagine that this is the way it will feel when my daughter leaves for college. It feels like a death in some ways, yet the company is still there--evolving into something greater. Travis is still fully involved and I no longer resent the time he spends with his "other child", because it frees up my time to have a love affair of my own: with writing.